Euphoria

Working is truly a new atmosphere...we could never expect it being the same as our campus years. Today in my first day I learned the difficulty in life. In the campus we may have people guiding us...our beloved parents, lecturers and so on.

But once stepping outside of the study environment, everything changes. We could no more expect to be "feed" each and every time. We need to learn them ourselves and finally or should I say truly being independent. In reality, you can say that life is going to get tougher. I kept questioning myself, would i be able to cope with the pressure. The person who was in my position previously had resigned. It was said that she work for a few months...

Enough said, today is quite a hectic, tiring and normal... it's just that i admit i did a mistake. I wasn't supposed to have 'taken things lightly' when my Manager asked me to read the financial report... I just simply read it, then return it to her. I was so shocked when she asked me "would you be able to answer if i answer you about it???" -- okay, my bad, my fault, i shouldn't have done that! my mistake on my first day! I'm sorry cause the financial review booklet was typically boring!

Up next, she asked me to read through this memorandum "Performance Management System" which explains on my job area to help me understand my job specification better. Ya Allah... *suffer on 1st day*

Got my table but still haven't got my PC, temporarily i was given a laptop to help me do my work, and my profile database has some technical problems. Which means i'll be facing problems on my punch-card system... Ya Allah, my lecturer was right, had to be patience cause i'll surely be facing a lot of obstacles and problems.

I admit, i'm not strong, but i'll get through it some how. I better be, if not maybe i'll just pursue my master degree..ehehe...

Well, enough for now, be signing-off...

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Yesterday i was unable to wrote down in this virtual diary of mine.
This blog has been a very dearly diary to me.I was sort of tired with my tight schedule yesterday.

But it was a really exciting day for me, i finally got myself that job!
Syukur! I'm hired babes...it was shocking...I slept for only about 3 hours, worrying about the interview in Ambank KL.

Got up early at 6am, perform my subuh prayer before leaving home for the interview session at 10am.

The traffic at public transportation was really poor. I nearly thought i wasn't going to make it early. Luckily i managed to got there early at about 9.30am.

But, as i mentioned earlier in my previous entry, the people in Malaysia really has poor manners. Despite seeing me carrying 3 portfolios (i mean files containing my certs and scroll) these people still tend to push around and rush their way into the commuter. The KTM should increases their services by optimizing the frequency of the train.

Well, back to the main point of this entry. I was shocked because i thought that there were supposed to be another interview. I already had my interview via phone conversations 3x (including the writing test thing)

Yesterday was supposed to be the 4th interview, but then it turned out to be a different kind of situation. I was asked to prepare my certs and scroll for the interviewer. Suddenly, i was asked to come into an interview room. then, they wanted me to do exams. 4 exam sheets with 4 different set of question (personality test, maths test, diagram test and comprehension test)

I even finished it rather late than i was supposed to submit. They asked me to hand it in at 11.55am but disappointingly i've submitted it at 12.15pm.

Afterwards, i was asked to wait at another interview room for an interview. I thought i was going to be a tough session, turns out to be something unexpected. They offered me the job directly. It was sort of so unreal at that moment. I can't believe my own ears!

They even said that they were keen to have me onboard. I hope i'd do well, i will perform my best! yes i will....amin...

Thank you Ambank for this opportunity... The greatest thing that i realized is, never failed to perform your prayer. Allah will never let you down if we always ask for his help. I'm very thankful to Him. Blessed be to Him... Alhamdulillah...

Its been a long silence since my blog entry before Raya. I miss blogging very much. Somehow it works as a medium for me to express what ever it is inside my thought. This also explains why I simply like writing compared to doing public speaking in from of an audience or crowd.

Well then, enough said. Getting back to the main point of this entry, I wanted to express how disappointed and ashamed I am with the attitudes of the Malaysians. We have been kept reminded on the same things over and over again. It could all continue like an endless cycle just like the Kerbs Cycle or what-so-ever cycle there maybe as is in science, what I meant is the endless and countless times where we were told about these things that we should practice or do in our daily routines. Hence, I hoped that this entry would somehow opens the mind and then triggers the brain of the public about how serious these small matter can be in the future.

Sometimes, I just guess that I'm not so proud with the “Eastern Values” that we had always claimed as our nation's pride. Despite having some of our most respectful leaders whom always spoke about how differ we are from the Western cultures. Yet, there still are people whom mostly neglected the importance of this issue. Which in fact had also included people who are serving in the government and the private sector itself, either you're an government servant or a part of the corporate sector staffs, it clearly makes no differences. I myself had encountered a few bad experience with people with poor manners. Here's my storyline:

Situation 1: UKM staff in the Treasurer Office (Payment Department)

I was queuing up to pay for my convocation fees cum my transcript fees at the T.O at Chancellery when I realize that my metric card was not in my possession. I left it with my friend because we were playing bowling the day before. Since my friend was busy with her practical session, I was unable to contact her to get my metric card. I had no other choice but to use my NRIC in case the staff needed some proof of identification.

When I had finally reached to the 3rd counter, the male staff said to me harshly and ill-mannerly by saying “Mana boleh macam ni bro!”. I was in shocked! I admit that it was exactly my fault for not having my metric card along with me, but what disappointed me was why does the male stuff had to say in such way? Weren't government servants had always uses the tagline like “Cekap, MESRA, Adil” etc? As a student of UKM, I myself were a client of UKM and in terms of that I subjectively have the right to receive a better treatment/ service or privileges. Where has the manners of the staff gone to?

Situation 2: JPPEL staff during the New Student Orientation Week

I assure you that this is one of the MOST ANNOYING and regretful day of my life. Never had I felt that angry before. I was one of the back-up facilitators of the Pusat Kebudayaan (PUSKEB) during that week. Somehow I and a few of my other facilitator friends had to rush to JPPEL office to arrange our tags. Since we're only back-ups recruited by the PUSKEB at the last hour, so our tags aren't done and we had to be responsible for our own tags.

What had make me totally upset was having the situation where one of the lady staff there had suddenly scolded us with no relevance. I was asking for my tag and she somehow seemingly couldn't able to find it! Of all sudden she gets a terrible mood. She was upset because there were so many mistakes of names printed on the tags and facilitators kept on coming back and forth into the office to had their names done on the tag. Especially in the case of us from the PUSKEB, she claimed that PUSKEB had kept on changing the names of the facilitators which causes trouble to the JPPEL staffs. The problem is, it wasn't our fault as the facilitator. Don't blame us but blame the management of the PUSKEB. She was babbling non-stop and humiliated me (only me) in front of the other facilitators from other Colleges. I myself was piss-off until I couldn't realize that a close friend of mine was also in that office. He even said that he got terrified of seeing my fair-turned-black-and-gloomy-face. As if I wanted to swallow that lady right at the very moment he told me. True! I had never felt that way before. I just kept quiet for the lady to go through the tags again to see if my name tags were done.

Suddenly I saw her coming across my name along those tags and quickly I ask for it and left the office after signing the check-list form. I could report this to the authorized personnel in UKM and had her fired from her job. But still, I remained soft-hearted and simply doesn't put the incident in mind. Even though along all the way back to Dewan Anuwar Mahmud I was cursing and calling my mother, telling her about how pissed I was with that lady back in the JPPEL office. And so, this was another example of how the UKM staffs are being so ill-mannered towards the students of UKM.

Situation 3: Government Staff at the SPA in Federal Administrative Office at KK

Me and both my parents had to go to JPA in order to collect a letter of acknowledgment for my Bach. Degree results before submitting my job application for the position of Lecturer at UiTM KK branch. Yet another disappointed event had occurred.

This time, before I had yet to finish my sentences I was cut-out of my lines and the person in-charge of the information counter had told me straight away to come by next week since all of the officers was still on leave. Sadly he spoke in a very unpleasant way, as if he wanted me to quickly brush-off the office hesitatingly. Even my parents were shocked and become speechless. I was upset but didn't want to make a fuss, so I just simply ignored the incident and forget about my application for UiTM KK.

However, I swore to myself that someday when I'm the Secretary General of Federal Administration Service, I am going to make sure that these attitude being abolished and introduces a better functioning bureau that takes charge of the public complaints regarding on the public services of the government sector. I shall have their 'heads-off' like the Japanese did to the Chinese, can I? Nah...Just kidding back there, I'll only had them punished for their bad manners.

Situation 4: A hijab shop near Segama area in KK

On the same day of the occurrence of situation 3, my parents and I decided to head on to Segama KK to accompany my mother to shop for her favourite “Tudung Permaisuri”. Before we finish our shopping session and head on for our dinner. Another upsetting incident occurred to me. I was scolded by a shop assistant when I asked her to bring down the whole hanger of tudungs. Suddenly she scolded me and said this “Kalau mau tudungnya kita tarik seja, nda boleh dibawa turun satu gantungan. Tarik seja kalau kita mau tengok!” in a very poor manner of Sabahan accent and walk away from my sight with a very evil glance. OMG, totally unacceptable! A customer being scolded by a shop assistant? Has the world turned upside down! She was lucky that I could stay out of my anger and kept being rational. I had to istighfar many times to cool myself to avoid from slapping her to death if I may. Only He knows how I felt that very moment.

Feeling unsatisfy with her actions, I ended up using reverse psychology by saying this aloud “Wah, bagusnya shop assistant zaman sekarang ni. Kita yang customer kita bah yang dimarah pula. Kebagusan pula perangai pekerja sekarang ni. Nasib baik baru lepas bulan puasa, sekarang ni tengah raya. Kalau ndak........... Aih, nasib Tuhan kasi aku kesabaran. Kalau nda memang habis lainih aku kerjakan! Sabar jak aku eh!!!”

Maybe she regretted her action after hearing what I've said, she suddenly turned her back and said to me politely as if she were trying to explain why she said in such way earlier. I simply cut her off her lines, raising a thumb-up to her face without staring at her and said “Macam ni lah gaya kalau bercakap sama customer! Muka manis, cakap sopan, bukan marah-marah tengking-tengking customer! Baru ngam!”. But still I couldn't stand looking her at the face, my anger was still uprising. I had to leave the premises quickly before things gotten worse. My hand was trembling like crazy! It felt like both my hands were to land on her ugly face. Lucky for her, I'm now much calmer and patient than I used to be. If not, it will be her worst nightmare, believe me.

Therefore, the conclusion that can be made from all of the cases or situations mentioned above is that the people are still having this lack of value in terms of good manners. We should always bear in mind that in order to have people respect us, we need to be able to be respectful towards the other first. Only then would it establishes a good interaction along with good manners. If not so, then we could say good-bye to our proud and pride of acclaiming ourselves for the eastern values that we have. A successful community are amongst those who projects positive images and attitudes within or outside of its own community. Only then would their achievements be acknowledge by others. As I would say in BM, “Tiada guna kita cemerlang atau berjaya dalam hidup kita, andai kata hidup kita ini tidak adanya budi pekerti dan budi bahasa yang tinggi”-End-

P/S: I myself tried my best of becoming a person or individuals by being respectful and well-mannered to others.

Oh my gosh, definitely when you start reading the title, there might be some confusion if its a movie title or something. But actually I'm just trying to emphasizes on my coming back on the blogging world. Its been a long silence... hehe... there might be people who seems to be missing my post or not. Well, doesn't matter at all.

Right now, silence is a healing for me, after all that happen recently. Frankly and honestly speaking, lots of bad memories happen throughout this whole 2009. Its almost nearly the end of year 2009. I'm doing some flashing backs on my life, i see loopholes, i see a lot of pain, and also moments of joy.

But am i really missing something important in my life right now? i think not, despite losing some friends, losing my love ones, experience a moment of torment being a jobless freak (well, that's what i say to myself sometimes). Yet, i'm grateful to the Almighty creator for His blessing. I heard about this saying before, that if you're being tested a lot by God, it means that He loves you very much and He wants to lessen your suffering in the after-life.

Yesterday I got some bad news, so I reflected on what happen. I think i know what He has planned for me. When you don't get something you want in your life, He actually destined for you something far far much better. Another old saying says like this, "you lose some, you gain some!", things in life happens to have their ups and downs, pros and cons. But what ever it may be, when something bad happen, i now find it hard to blame Him, oppositely i find it as a blessing before anything worse happen and it makes me stronger day by day.

Today, I had received a phone call. It was from Ambank regarding on my job application there as a Human Resource Executive. I was so excited I got stuck in some of my replies during the phone interview. I've read in the jobstreet guide previously that the interview was also essential. Oh my, I wonder if I had spoiled my own interview. I was all excited about it I didn't even wait for her (the interviewer) to finish her question, can you imagine that? I even got fillers in my answers (urm, -lah, err etc...oh dear!). Another one of my mistake is I ended it with "something like that lah!". Who teach you to say that Maidizah??? Really brilliant, gosh..prof saliha was right! I should have avoided that sentence long ago!

Well, but what happen did already happen. I think I did my best. Yet, she said that it was "nice talking to you" in a very sweet manner. Just now, she called back again. This time she asked me to do a short essay. She said she'll email me today. Hope i'm going to do well on that. By the way, she even said that they're currently screening a few more candidates and i'll get the news about me succeeding myself to get into a 'live' interview after Raya.

Right now, I'll just pray for the best to myself. Strive my best and pray (i mean tawakal to Him) AMIN!